Dreams and other broken things...
I walked through rooms that once were my life and saw the scattered, tattered, torn debris... In the din of silence and musty, darkened nooks I saw my innocence cast aside and the sweetness of my youth. I bent to gently hold in hand to sense of what had been when light itself from unknown source illumined that room, and I saw my dreams cast upon the ground...
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Alberta This province has magic colour of the grasses, maroon, and the sounds, city sounds, Country sounds meshed together. Set the cruise and drift
All this is new and sometimes Like all my secrets are bared I grew up where the ocean where I confessed my soul and feasted on the mountain peaks.
I thought I could never adjust yet the more I learn about the more important I value to be open - like the open skies of Alberta and of the open seas of B. C. |
Malibu Sands
I remember warm, wet sands of Mailbu. We watched as tiny birds, time-stepped in perfect formation, doing what tiny birds do. An exacting performance to the percussion of rhythmic waves. How do they know to do this? Do they grow weary in the sameness? I wonder, would they cease to exist were it not for the doing? I was spellbound by their life as it unfolded before me. Flitting here, there, in formation. Focused, determined. Fulfilled by the very action of doing what tiny birds do.
Were it all so simple. Clearly defined parameters. Focused. Determined. Fulfilled by the very action of the doing. Perhaps.
I remember you pointed down the coast line. See there, you said, the advancing shade line. Or was it the receding sun line? You said those homes over there would soon be in shade, as the sun, its doing done, moved on to seascapes other that this. I wanted to watch but all I could see were the changes going on inside of me. The parameters changing, the doing done. The heat of the daylight sun moving on, leaving in its void the serenity of the late day shade. That time of comfort and peace, just before dark releases questions of its own. How could I not love a man who cared or even knew that those homes would soon be in shade?
And I remember we sat side by side, shoulder to shoulder, alone, yet together on still warm Malibu sands. You said we did not have much time. We needed to talk. So we sat, in solitude, words unspoken, yet understood deep in the very fiber of our being. I saw where skyline met origin of the sea, empowering it to do what seas do, rhythmically build in non-existent perpetual motion, the coming in and going out of wave upon wave, until that energy, so great, must by design, be expressed upon the very edge of its existence, dissipating in exhaustion upon the warmth of the earth.
And I drank of this beauty. I was compelled to remember this moment. My moment of solitude. Alone yet together. My own personal skyline somewhere gives birth to the origin of rhythmic, perpetual motion, the coming in and going out of self. The doing. The very meaning of my existence. My very life.
Again, I am compelled to remember this moment. To drink of this beauty. Alone. With you. What is that energy so great within me that must be expressed upon the very edge of my existence? Where is my warm earth who will receive me and dissipate that energy before I am lost in the exhaustion of my doing?
Without a Clue
So what do I have to say to your people?
They know it all but spat it on the shoes those shiny shoes of the breadwinner
"Be yourself" I hear, but
So your kids, your twinkles in they glowing eye of glastnost sit in consumerism discussing why MTV shows too many commercials and why "grunge" is "chic" but are stuck, too, to your ways of doing things: mannerisms, Dear Abby, and the Catholic church rolled into one great Taco Supreme And you wonder why they're confused? |
inside out byte by byte by byte by byte trickles down my ISDN line-spine telling each part its tasks. looking, breathing, touching, feeling reduced to electronic pulses working themselves through diodes and chips.
inside The Box
telecommunications--reaching out to others
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